*sigh*
Do you guys ever have a day where in the heat of some emotion or fear you do something, or don't do something, that you regret later? A couple years ago I had the opportunity to meet the creators of Homestarrunner.com. They were coming to UCF and my uncle had all the hooks. All I had to do was call him to schedule a time.
I forgot.
And that moment still haunts me to this day. My stomach lurches when I think about what could have been. How much fun and insight I could have gained.
Something similar happened today. At lunch, I sat on a stone bench outside by myself until my buddy finished buying his lunch. I looked around and my eyes caught a girl that sits outside everyday by herself. She was awkward, not the prettiest, and shamelessly outcasted by the majority of people she encountered. In that moment, I felt the whisper of the Holy Spirit creep up my spine into my brain.
"Go sit next to her."
Aghhhh!!
"Go."
There was no mistaking it. I would have never devised such a thought on my own. I hesitated against the will of the Lord, and the girl moved.
Now, I'll never know what might have happened if I would've sat next to her and just said hi. How can I pray for Jesus to work in my life and to possess my every being if I'm too afraid to step out of my comfort zone and just love others? I don't know if this girl was saved or not, but what if she wasn't? This world is dying, and I'm sitting around wondering what people will think of me.
I really do not like high school.
I guess it all comes back to when you build up the courage to lose.
Elaborate, you say?
Surely:
"For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it."
Do you guys ever have a day where in the heat of some emotion or fear you do something, or don't do something, that you regret later? A couple years ago I had the opportunity to meet the creators of Homestarrunner.com. They were coming to UCF and my uncle had all the hooks. All I had to do was call him to schedule a time.
I forgot.
And that moment still haunts me to this day. My stomach lurches when I think about what could have been. How much fun and insight I could have gained.
Something similar happened today. At lunch, I sat on a stone bench outside by myself until my buddy finished buying his lunch. I looked around and my eyes caught a girl that sits outside everyday by herself. She was awkward, not the prettiest, and shamelessly outcasted by the majority of people she encountered. In that moment, I felt the whisper of the Holy Spirit creep up my spine into my brain.
"Go sit next to her."
Aghhhh!!
"Go."
There was no mistaking it. I would have never devised such a thought on my own. I hesitated against the will of the Lord, and the girl moved.
Now, I'll never know what might have happened if I would've sat next to her and just said hi. How can I pray for Jesus to work in my life and to possess my every being if I'm too afraid to step out of my comfort zone and just love others? I don't know if this girl was saved or not, but what if she wasn't? This world is dying, and I'm sitting around wondering what people will think of me.
I really do not like high school.
I guess it all comes back to when you build up the courage to lose.
Elaborate, you say?
Surely:
"For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it."
-Mat. 16:25
I try to rationalize with myself.
"It's just an age thing. With time I'll grow in Christ. I can't expect to be a strong witness in Christ at 16."
No.
Something I, and all other Christians, need to realize is that God is calling us. He's beckoning for us to go forth and be fishers of men. It's just a matter of when we're ready to lose ourselves.
"It's just an age thing. With time I'll grow in Christ. I can't expect to be a strong witness in Christ at 16."
No.
Something I, and all other Christians, need to realize is that God is calling us. He's beckoning for us to go forth and be fishers of men. It's just a matter of when we're ready to lose ourselves.
2 comments:
There is always tomorrow. If you know she always sits outside by herself to eat lunch then you also know that there will be another "right place, right time" scenerio.
If you could only travel back in time and fix what was messed up.
Maybe this is why Jesus always said to "always be prepared" because God knew that mankind loves to put off today what they can do tomorrow. We are not guaranteed tomorrow. So go get DIRTY!
This post really inspired me Matt. Seriously, last night at church I took your words and put them to action, brennan was sitting alone back in the row close to the youth sponsors. So I got up and chilled with him, hes a nice kid, just a little hyper. But like Sean said, some things god asks us are tough, but there might not be a tomorow, so use what you have today.
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